His voice warm and enticing.
resonant and deep like thunder ,
It is too alluring, it is too fine ,
It speaks with such risqué
provoking what I lust after.
His words alone leave me craving,
promising unknown thrills,
and igniting a fire within ,
which blazed like a lighthouse
even when within a sniffing distance
I can barely think, I am barely myself.
He is just a friend,
But for fun’s sake,
He said we could be more than just friends. Overwhelmed by the feels of it ,
I was his for him to take
It takes skill, to Learn to Tuck the feelings in And pretend to not care.
The thrill of a touch to not at all mean much.
It was a dangerous perk,
A lover disguised as a friend
Though the flashbacks draw me back
A thousand times by night
Each day my doom does feel nearer;
Each day my thirst does grow
Each moment I never wish it to end
I moan and toss in my troubled sleep,
And as soon as my eyes close it’s him I feel,
It’s him I want
And it cannot be helped, i am in too deep ,
misled by my emotions
misguided to believe that something more could be possible
There was thirst and hunger and he was the fine meal
i wanted him only for myself, I was so greedy
there were sweet songs sung, calling out his name
as his thrusts were like a beating drum
since each beat rhythmically flowed
I possessed no skill , I was so needy
my feeble human heart dreamed of more
more that he swore he couldn’t give
How much longer can I keep quiet
he must know the thing i want but choose to hide;
to Be mine but I fear I might be denied,
He must know but he might leave
I knew then that i had been the fool,
When I broke our only rule,
The Harmless fun was danger,
a danger that will be my ruin