Today feels like my whole life
Has been a lie
I feel a stranger in my own body
A suit made of skin
That has grown too small
Maybe too big
I float in this sea of nothingness
No direction
No sight
No me
Don’t find me
I don’t want to be found
Just want to stay here
Adrift
Another lie
I thought I was a seeker of truth
My biggest lie
I seek validation
I have known of my bias
But again I lied to myself
I wanted to change the world
Without changing myself
Tomorrow may be different
My skin will fit just right
The windows to my soul
Will be clean
Right now they are dusty
And dirty
My laundry hanging for all to see
Don’t judge me
It’s really not who I am
Maybe tomorrow I will find her
If she wants to be found