For a long time I gazed unwaveringly
Into the abyss of my tattered faith
I felt bound by rules of how it should be
Yet how it turned out to be in reality
I felt betrayed by the choice I made
Feeling fate play with my life
Those themes and wishes have become ashes scattered all over
Each time I felt that I grasped on the wisps of truth
I was tortured for my naive beliefs
My entire being was mocked upon
For those who never played by rules
They talk in great flare about you
Your presence, how they know you are theirs alone
Yet make such callous action and toxic talks
How can I free myself from this trap
To see life for what it is
Not more not less
Magnificent miracle yet a swirling mess
To choose myself over these garbage
To make peace for my wounds and scars
To grow up from these marshy land
Thrive through the trials of life
Bloom over and over regardless of what may come to be
To have a space to mold yet not to break
To give my best and make the best of it all
To see real priorities over falsities
To burn like a bright camphor till the end