Today is my last day
Today I woke up early
Today I took a shower and picked out my prettiest clothes
A floral dress I\'ve never had the chance to wear until today
Along with sparkly earrings I haven\'t wore in a long time
And heels that were still in the box
Today I brushed my hair
There were many knots, but I managed
Today I put on makeup and perfume
Today I felt beautiful
Before I left I cleaned my apartment
Today it was finally clean
Today I didn\'t look at my phone
Today I left it behind instead
I grabbed my purse and closed the door behind me
Today I didn\'t take the elevator
I took the stairs
Today was nice day
it had been raining the day before
it was not too hot or too chilly
I took a walk through the neighborhood
I usually take the bus
But today I walked
I took my time walking around, enjoying the scenery
Something I\'ve never taken the time to do
Today I went into a cafe
There was a long line, but I waited
i ordered an overpriced latte and a pastry
Today I didn\'t take it to go
I took a seat by the window
Today I took my time to eat
It was nice
After I finished I left the cafe
I went to a convenience store and bought all the things I felt like buying just because I can
Today I did some more shopping
I tried on all the prettiest clothes and bought a few things
I went to sephora and sampled some lipstick colors
And before I knew the day was almost over
I go back to my apartment complex
I took the stairs again
Today I didn\'t go on my floor
Instead I went all the way up to the roof
I took my time and stood at the edge of the building
Today was a good day
The best it has been in a long time
I haven\'t checked my phone in hours and I don\'t need to
It was very slippery
Today I looked at the sunset instead of a blue screen
I looked behind me into a puddle of my reflection and I realised something
What am I doing?
I try to climb back down but I slip
I grab onto the edge
dangling off the side of the building
As much I wanted to
I don\'t want to die
I want to live more than anything
But I don\'t want to live like this
So I want to look forward to the next today
I struggle to get back up
But if I can\'t get up myself up who will help me if not me?
Today I put the most effort into wanting to live
Because today I was able to get back up
Because today I want to live differently