How many times am I going to do this to myself -
Knowing what the outcome will be
Hoping & praying your words you spoke or true this time around
Will it mend, or will it break
Last chance, make it your best yet
Should have known it was just more rubbish being told
Same lines slithering off your tongue
All I ever did was love you & want only you forever, nothing more
You just let all your demons & your addiction take over
Making up & believing all these insane things to be true
Yet, am I the insane one for doing it over & over, just like before?
Putting me through absolute hell -
Causing so much pain, hurt & tears
I blame you for all of it -
The lies, accusations & such
Shouldn\'t I be mad at myself
For letting you do it continuously over again
Guess what -
I have an addiction, too
It differs from yours & I didn\'t want to quit or let go
Strange as it seems, my addiction is you
Telling me you can\'t fight this alone & you need my help
Anything I did, it was always wrong
Time to close that door in my life -
It\'s time I start helping myself