Some sleepless nights, spells of depression, anxiety spouts lasting weeks with no break, paranoia that follows along giving me the feeling of choking when left alone.
The rush of adrenalin when my mood switched and stages of Euphoria that follow.
Walking on water. that’s what the highs feel like.
Somedays I think feel like im better, like it’s passing and i’ll be okay.
Until I crash.
Sometimes trying to maintain myself is such a struggle, it’s like you can’t breath and you wanna push the weight of your chest but just can’t.
Other times i’m stagnant.
That is what it’s like.
You’re okay till you aren’t.
You try so hard to feel normal, and sometimes you believe you are.
Until it’s time to take your medicine the next day, just to be able to maintain the feelings of balance.