At first, nothing feels right
My body, my world, something is off
My head starts hurting, sometimes my stomach too
I feel confused and uncomfortable, uneasy
It grows to the point where I’m pacing back and forth
Anything to make me less distressed
Then the heavy breathing
Soon evolves to panting
Then so fast and uncontrollable
My heart beats quickly I shake violently
My legs feel weak, knees shaky
Inside my head, panic, fear.
I should just calm down!
Dizzy, I don’t feel good
Sweaty palms
So uncomfortable everything is so uncomfortable
Collapsing to the ground
No strength to stand anymore
Pulling out my hair, just make it stop!
Rocking back and forth
Trying to comfort myself
Why do I feel so afraid?