Regret, Fear, Shame,
Worry, Rejection,
Care is rewarded with guilt
Gilded with worry
Glamorized with affection.
The regret of knowledge
“Ignorance is bliss”
Translated to
Know as little as possible if you do not want to be changed.
Listen with caution
Feel with fear.
Know the consequences of
understanding.
Feeling
Live up to the storyline
Follow it
Breaking
Guilt for yourself
For preferably
For attraction
For needs
For wants
For peace
Stop.
Leave me alone.
Let me think, I need time.
I don’t understand my reaction
So unlike me.
But what am I like?
What makes me important?
Stop.
It’s so familiar
This feeling of unsatisfaction.
Of remorse
I am to blame?
For myself?
“You had no wrongdoings”
But I am
“To blame”
What do they feel?
How do I make up for unrequited love?
How do I fix it?
“You don’t”
“Why?”
“Because you can fix their perception of you.
You can distort it, but you will always haunt them”
Stop.
I didn’t ask for this.
“Lucy misfortune”
“Suffering from success”
Stop.
Successes shouldn’t hurt,
Cutting from a knife.
Tightness in your chest.
Testing your loyalty,
Stop it.
Stop it right now.
I can’t handle it.
I can’t take the
responsibility.
Incompetent.
Tired.
Stop.
Overstimulation.
I can’t feel anymore.
Terror.
Stop. Stop it, I said Stop.
End it please.
I beg of you.
Stop.