I\'m tired as I try to better myself. I ask myself what\'s all this for? I keep on failing even as I succeed.
I\'m tired of trying to keep these demons at bay. These feelings consume me.
As I return to the land that once shattered me, I know I can\'t bring hope or despair so I\'ll be neutral.
As I fight this war from within I realize I need to stop fighting it just no winning it.
As my spirit gives way to the conditions of life, I found myself having nothing of a life it\'s just been waisted and had no meaning.
Sometimes I want to tear down the world. But I can do is be neutral.
I can never be what I want. Life\'s just not having it for me. I can\'t have peace but I can\'t lash out in chaos.
So I\'ll show no anger and I\'ll show no pain, disappointment, guilt or shame.
Back to the fake and the lies. Saying I\'m ok with a fake smile. All I have left is to be neutral.
I give up trying to plan. All my plans have backfired in some shape or form.
Now that these walls have been crush down. I feel this storm from within and don\'t know it means.
Feel that the end is near. Maybe that\'s not such a bad thing. All I wanted is not to feel weak but feel invincible. But the best move is to be just neutral.