swallowed, wallowing, beckoning,
dwelling, unforgiving, sickening,
a blackness has spread through me.
threatening to consume me whole.
i\'m in the dark, fighting to get to the surface,
trying to be above the water,
trying to fight the monsters away,
pushing to keep them at bay,
the weight is heavy & all knowing,
realizing it can crush me still,
staking claim on my will.