I\'ve been on edge lately
I feel used and abused by circumstances
I try to find a method to the madness
The reason for my suffering
Everyday I wait for a sign
A sign that lets me know that I was not made to live a life a torment
Or just born to die
But all I seem to find are more hardships
Heavier loads to bear
More weight on my shoulders
Sometimes I feel like screaming
Sometimes I feel like destroying in my path
Sometimes I feel like taking matters into my own hands
So many thoughts spinning around my head
Like a sadistic merry go round
Everything\'s happening so fast
I try to catch up but I fall face first
And I fall hard
I fantasize about death and long for lifelessness
I can\'t handle myself of anyone else
I haven\'t seen the sun in such a long time
I\'m disturbed
I\'m broken
I don\'t know how much more if this I can take
My days are lonely
My nights are cold
I\'m tired and I just want to let go
I\'m so young but I feel so old
Forever searching for an escape
But all I seem to find are more broken pieces