i was supposed to suck it up,
to save face. He left me no choice as
the bruises had spread to my face.
he lashed out, screamed at me until i was faced
with his fury. I can\'t remember the countless times,
where i felt fear.
he would convince me with his many lines that he
loved me still & always will.
in my head, i knew i was captured, a prisoner,
held, secured in place to soothe his rage.
a year went by & i was trapped still.
his temper when lit, raged a ragged double sided blade
for anyone in the way.
countless tears i cried.
no one seemed to listen.
no hand was extended, no aid came & no matter what
i was always to blame.
his temper flared as he drank
tonight i\'ll suffer the wrath of his hate.
spring arrived & i was able to leave &
i finally got away & added the much needed distance
from him & i.
he spouted words & i felt his malice from afar,
relief flooded me knowing he couldn\'t
touch me anymore.