“My Heart” (5/29/2023 Tom Entrican)
I laid it there for all to see, no secret hidden there
All that I am; the love and pain and even my despair
I may not please everyone, just how I choose to be
At least you will know right up front the entirety of me
You do not have to like my words or actions as it were
But if you chance to ponder some perhaps it will occur
That all I do is leave for you some thoughts there in your cart
Whether it is bad or good, it comes straight from my heart
I have not lived a thousand years or climbed up every hill
But I can show you where it was she gave my heart a spill
I can write down all the things that torture me at night
And hope that it will make you think and keep you up at night
I talk of all the scars I wear, and maybe they are earned
Or tell of all the bridges that the one I loved has burned
I speak for all the lonely in this world so torn apart
Who do not care to share like me, these things here in my heart
The dreary thoughts that follow me come right there from page one
While most pretend they do not see, it all seems so undone
Sometimes your pain is just like mine and helps us both to see
That we will always have with us this hurt to some degree
If I had extras in my bag, the smiles I would hand out
But life as far as I can see just leaves me too much doubt
My soul is bruised, my mind is drenched, the sorrow won’t depart
The darkness of life’s evil way eats right through my heart
If love has taught me anything, you cannot duck and roll
Whatever pieces you pick up, the heart will pay the toll
Some are funny, some are sad, and some are just benign
The good and bad and ugliness just hang there in my lines
So if you’re blue and looking for some peace perhaps to steal
I offer little comfort as my own soul will not heal
Perhaps for me love will return, never to depart
Until that day the bandages remain upon my heart