190 Days. Today I felt a spark of happiness for once as I look at the ones around me.
180 Days. Today the spark grews into a flame as the ones who care cover the cowardly wind.
170 Days. Today it\'s gotten smaller as I share my spark to those who need it. To those who feel like bad people.
160 Days. I should stop the count. I feel wanted and loved.
150 Days. Today wasn\'t the day but it\'s okay. They are all happy so I\'m happy too.
78 Days. Today times gotten slower, I can\'t feel my skin, and I feel sick. I almost saw the darkness.
36 Days. Today I hate myself. I always have. They claim its not me but who else could it be?
24 Days. Today I\'m 13. The age I swore I\'d never see. I should feel proud but I dont because they aren\'t.
15 Days. I\'ve gotten sicker as the darkness consumes the only feelings I care for. I try to grab onto the small things but even the small things are being taken.
6 Days. I thought it was getting better. I thought I would\'ve stopped the count. Why didn\'t I stop it? Why do I still feel like shit?
5 Days. They all can tell I\'m not happy. Why do they make me feel bad for not being happy? Am I just dragging their mood down?
4 Days. Today I slept. I imagined I died. I distanced myself from the world to realize nobody cared. Some part of me thought they would.
3 Days. 187 days in and I just realized they have eachother. They all do. They have their pairs but I don\'t. I\'ve always got in the way of them and their pairs but I never had my own.
2 Days. I\'ve found my pair. My trio. But why am I not happy? I want to stop the count but I can\'t.
1 Day. Why do I not care? I have something to live for don\'t I? Why am I a bad person. I\'m on my breaking point. Maybe the wind isn\'t weak at all.
0 Days. I stand on the chair as I look at my room thats seen it all. The room that has been coated in tears throughout the years. I let the note in my hand glide down as I open my mouth to speak. Nobody heard it. Nobody ever did hear me. \"I don\'t want to-\" Is all I said as I stumbled and the darkness around my neck consumed me.