Ashley Cassasola

INTRUSIVE THOUGHTS

Why did you lie to me? You made me believe I was worthless, you made me believe that you loved me, you even made me believe that you\'re always going to be by my side. 

What have I ever done to you? All I did was show you the real me, I\'ve kept it real with you from the start, turns out you\'ve been playing in both parts. I thought you were my friend, I even called you family. 

How do I fix this? Can I even fix this, fix us. 

I question myself daily, trying to understand why you do what you did. The only reason i could come up with is to use me. Do you hate me? never mind don\'t answer that, because most days I hate me, it\'s the sad truth, but i do. 

Your a fucking lunatic, do you know that?  you\'re doing it again, you\'re talking to yourself. You\'re the one making your problems two times worse than how it already is. 

NO! YOUR WRONG!!! 

I\'m talking to someone who actually listens, to someone who actually cares, to someone who...

TO SOMEONE WHO WHAT? I only listen to you because I don\'t have a choice, and I help you because when you\'re down I\'m down too! I\'M YOU, and your ME. 

AND WE need to get our shits together, we need to show the ones who told us that we wouldn\'t make it, that we did make it. and that we can do it all. 

So why are you in front of the mirror arguing and crying to yourself  when you should be putting on a brave and bold look. Confidence is the key to success. I need you to reek of confidence, show then you can do it. Your story still needs a perfect ending, so make sure that the endings are perfect.