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Since your Departure 

Since your Departure 

it has been long

since your departure 

and so it has been long 

since I was me

because now my every living moment

is missing you desperately 

 

quiet nights feel brutal, a raging blue, a violating ache 

walks in the park don\'t excite me

and my smiles fleet and feel fake

coffee doesn\'t taste as good

all my conversations feel rehearsed

words are only half as full

knowing they sometimes, most times, aren\'t true 

I sit in the shower and weep like a child

I eat plain dry bread

in the blueberry dark, my bedsheets are cold

and the twin bed, made for two

always stays half made

 

your deep red cherry lipstick

still sits in the second drawer from the left 

remember how you used to kiss me? 

on both eyes, both cheeks, forehead, nose and lips? 

it has been long since your departure

and I haven\'t been able to let my guard down

how long till you come back home?

how long till my life feels mine?