Since your Departure
it has been long
since your departure
and so it has been long
since I was me
because now my every living moment
is missing you desperately
quiet nights feel brutal, a raging blue, a violating ache
walks in the park don\'t excite me
and my smiles fleet and feel fake
coffee doesn\'t taste as good
all my conversations feel rehearsed
words are only half as full
knowing they sometimes, most times, aren\'t true
I sit in the shower and weep like a child
I eat plain dry bread
in the blueberry dark, my bedsheets are cold
and the twin bed, made for two
always stays half made
your deep red cherry lipstick
still sits in the second drawer from the left
remember how you used to kiss me?
on both eyes, both cheeks, forehead, nose and lips?
it has been long since your departure
and I haven\'t been able to let my guard down
how long till you come back home?
how long till my life feels mine?