bevan tse stuart

Toxic

It wasn’t toxic you told me

none of it was toxic

and maybe it wasn‘t

but why did you take 2 weeks to plan it and still pretend whilst you did that

it wasn’t toxic whilst you told everyone before me

it wasn’t toxic when you couldn’t sit next to me at work

it wasn’t toxic when you couldn’t look me in the eye when I said I loved you

it wasn’t toxic when you couldn’t say you loved me. 
it wasn’t toxic when you couldn’t wriggle out of a hug fast enough because you’d already desensitised to it

it wasn’t fucking toxic when you took a week to plan when to do it. 

It wasn’t toxic when you laughed because I broke my hand over it

It wasn’t toxic. 
you promised it wasn’t toxic.