bevan tse stuart

Saying

I don’t want to say I love you

far from it. 
I want to say so much more 

I want to say live with me

i want to say spend all your free time with me

i want to say invite me to dinner with your parents

i want to say please wake up with me every day 

I want to say let me cook you dinner whilst you’re busy

i want to say I want to come home to a house with you

I want to say let me kiss you goodnight every night

i want to say will you marry me?

but instead I’m here. 
I haven’t said any of that. 
I live here in silence and you will never know