I don’t want to say I love you
far from it.
I want to say so much more
I want to say live with me
i want to say spend all your free time with me
i want to say invite me to dinner with your parents
i want to say please wake up with me every day
I want to say let me cook you dinner whilst you’re busy
i want to say I want to come home to a house with you
I want to say let me kiss you goodnight every night
i want to say will you marry me?
but instead I’m here.
I haven’t said any of that.
I live here in silence and you will never know