I know I\'ve been so selfish
But you dont know my life
I\'ve watch it go up in flames
And walk around like it\'s alright
And no one ever gave a damn
But yet I still hold my head high
And cry in silent every single night
I live in a world full of hate and pain
So my trust and mind went insane
I can\'t help who they force me to become
I try so hard to change my whole outcome
You can say there is no excuses how I am
But I\'ve been living my life on a thread
Living in my own world that I created in my head
that\'s the only place I became comfortable in.
I try to pull myself out of this darkness
But I have some traumas that trap me
And hurtful memories I can\'t escape from
That I seem to hold on to
And I am not ready to rebuild a whole new chapter
untill I can control a world I don\'t know I\'m waken up to.
I have some insecurities I haven\'t even dealt with
I got some more demons I need to put to rest
so when I die my soul can rest.