The silence is loud in my mind
Thoughts are so consuming, I easily get left behind
I scream to call out for help, but no one can hear
Nobody knows the suffering I constantly endure and
they never will understand it makes me want to disappear
The demons forever clash in my brain
What the hell has been keeping me so sane?
Writing, music, family and him is my answer.
Not having any of those things or even losing one
Would surely set free the monster who lies within
It’s funny in a way, maybe not to you, but to me
I’d never thought I see the day I would turn 20
I admit and accepted this already
Planning to die the day you turn 18 isn’t something you
can just erase
Why, you ask? You would’ve had your whole life ahead of you, why so
young?
I felt in my heart, in my soul that I wasn’t strong enough to overcome a
monster so exhausting, so traumatizing
Feeling unworthy to face an obstacle that is so painful
is soul crushing to say the least
Now that I stand here today, alive and well
Knowing that survival is a possibility
Overcoming this demon will come and I’ll
have an amazing story to tell
I say thanks to myself for not giving up so easily
Why?
Well..
Look at me now.