I can\'t find my life
I lost it along the way
My back scarred from knives
Walk\'n a road I didn\'t pave
Everywhere I look it\'s dark
I can\'t even play my part
Thought there was light in a plea
But it only left fire in me
Jesus said mercy is for the merciful
But the more I give the more I\'m played a fool
Living under the thumb of those who have none
Fans the flame in me where I can\'t hear the Son
Speak the truth and you\'re in denial
Just play along the words of their song
Live a lie to have a repeating life
Given a record to hear too long
I can\'t find my life
They say it\'s only their way
I mourn as fruit dies
Place it\'s death along their way
Speak blessings not curses
But the ones I\'ve blessed leave me cursing
I tear out this heart to pull it apart
Carve out everything that caused it\'s hurting
It\'s a lonely road
So pick yourself up
Carry your own load
No need reaching up
When you do you\'ll find it\'s only you
Even feels God has turned His back too
Love of many grown cold
And dumped it\'s hate like coal
The light of hope too far to see
Or it just doesn\'t shine for me
If suffocating pain is all it\'ll be
Then leave my life lost cause it\'s just not for me