my life looked fun on screen
but i was lonely inside
i found happiness at the bottom of a shot glass
and i found sadness at the bottom of an advil bottle
i think i found joy in being unknown in a crowded room
i felt like i could be seen but never understood
oh how miserable life would be in the day
because i only lived for friday nights
now i enjoy reading on monday mornings
and going downtown at noon instead of midnight
i am happier now but i am still alone
but on the inside i am slowly filling with love
and that is something that cannot be captured on my phone
thank you for the long nights that became mornings
thank you for showing me i have lived because i have made mistakes
and thank you for allowing me to learn to love myself sober in the daylight