Depression changes you as a person and the way you look at life
You spiral out of control on a long downwards slope and you feel all hope is lost, you feel like nothing is ever going to be right again, your mind plays tricks on you
It\'s like your walking through a deep long dark tunnel every step you take
Walking in total darkness no light to guide your way hitting the side as you step a long lonely path feeling
Lost confused scrambling to find yourself a way out
The journey is a lonely one and all the time You question why do I feel like this, what have I done to suffer what you think is weakness you bottle up your emotions afraid to open up to anyone yet no-one around you knows the pain and mental suffering you feel
You wear a mask one that is fragile one where you smile even though you want to cry, you can\'t let people see your pain and so you just carry on, feeling more pain more hurt but inside feeling there is no hope
You feel this can\'t be happening emotions whirling around your head, dark feelings your heart feels like its breaking, you feel ashamed, you can\'t understand how things have got so bad for you and you don\'t feel any real identity
Everyday you struggle things are harder, everywhere you turn someone builds a blockade in front of you, your trapped you can\'t escape the dark world your in, things enter your head you know are wrong ways to end your misery, it\'s then you need to be brave make a choice
You can\'t carry on struggling you know you need to do something
You seek help from professionals you think because you took that choice that things will be simple you commit to medication that you don\'t know how it will really effect you, how long you will require it, the walk in the tunnel could be long a year two longer no one knows
All you know is eventually if your lucky you make it out of the tunnel into light and you are reborn a new you, new respect, new ways of looking at things re- evaluating your life choices, the journey is long and hard
You keep walking and walking your emotions numb every step that you walk is a long walk to freedom from the darkness your in, you don\'t feel yourself but you know what your doing is right, then suddenly something happens and you feel like is the journey worth it
Sometimes it\'s a change in your medication or you lose the ability to do things that you could do, sometimes you feel a freak as you ride the ups and downs of your journey yet you keep on walking
Suddenly there is a chink of light far far away in the distance who knows how much time has past, you start walking faster the light gets bigger and bigger, your almost there you start to be more yourself then suddenly the tunnel is behind you, you have reached the other end
Pure daylight no fears no worries your reborn and the long journey through darkness was worth it.