transprodigalson

Red-Felt Scars

There\'s scars on my body

Spread out like a constellation of stars;

A set of man-made galaxies

That nobody\'s allowed to see,

Because seeing them 

Means something horrid to me

 

Sometimes I trace my scars

With a marker stained red - 

Marking where my blood could\'ve gone

And where my blood should\'ve went. 

I trace again with my tip-bitten nails,

Hoping it\'s enough for what I meant. 

 

I hate staring at my scars. 

Shadows of mistakes I\'ve made and done. 

Watching as I try -

Day after day -

To stay away from the pain,

Because they\'re stories I can\'t afford to say.