I asked you to take them away
In case I end up doing something wrong
You were hesitant
But you took and placed them in the stationary holder in the cupboard in front of me
No locks No passwords needed
Do you trust me that much
When you keep texting me incessantly where I am now
Calling me non-stop if I did not respond fast enough
Because No I know that you do not trust me at all
What you believe in
Is yourself, your teachings and your belief that this is all a phase
What can I say
It has been four years
And I am still doing it
Thanks for not noticing my obvious calls for help
I can never bring this up ever again
Because you can never accept that your own daughter was hurting herself
You think how could a normal human harm herself on purpose
I wish you would know that it is not just a phase
That it has inevitably become my habit
A part of my life that I have learned to accept
And maybe some day just one day you would too.
At least now I have something to look forward to
No matter how rare the pigs fly