after years of alienation from her
she has finally come back to me
oh how I have missed her and her ignorant bliss
she holds me tightly asking how I’ve been
and I cry in her shoulder for how difficult it has been
my confidence…
I know I have to once again earn her trust
blocking out the whispers in my ear from those who wish to hurt me
It is so difficult to keep her with me every day
what will I wear?
How do they think of me?
Am I pretty enough for them?
How does my hair look today?
Am I skinny enough?
Their words swelling my brain making me angry with her for leaving before
but I know she left me because I was not strong enough to defend her
I am now stronger than I believe and she is my best friend
Although there are days where she leaves me, she will always come back to me
Once I realize that I am pretty, I am smart, it doesn’t matter what they think, I can wear whatever I want, my hair looks fine, and there will never be “skinny enough” so I can finally learn to love who I am.