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Her Wintery Embrace

I gaze upon you like a lover in slumber

I desire to be in you

I walk to you but your air is cool

I hesitate but…

I must

I must enter you

You will be my salvation, my therapy

I know that if I hesitate too long the moment will be gone and I shall regret not having it, like some regret when they do

So in I go, headfirst and it is the chill that hits me but I’m in now and she embraces me

I reach for her bottom but it’s always just a breath away

How long can I stay in?

It’s mind over matter now and matter’s winning

I steel myself to go the distance and resolve to push to my limit

Longer than last time

Stroking, stroking

Holding, holding on

Then up and out and I’m finished

The sun shines down and warms my skin and I emerge refreshed, renewed, alive