There\'s no easy way to fade -
To erase yourself from “normal” life -
But it\'s easier than plundering yourself with a knife.
It\'s easier than lying dead;
Being a corpse rotting in bed.
It\'s a simple choice all man-made.
Nobody knows.
I\'ll never tell,
To avoid all the “you need to get well”s;
Avoiding wishes for “health” and “clean”
Sent out from voices on my mother’s screen.
Nobody knows, \'cause I know how this show goes.
I miss the warmth of summer’s sun.
I miss the days I didn\'t burn,
The warmth of days I\'ll never earn.
There\'s a bite deep beneath my skin;
Frozen inside, I can\'t tell where it begins.
I miss when my worries were on how to have fun.