I’ve always been more a fool than a boy
Or maybe those just go together when you’re me
Either way I became a fool for poetry november 10th 2019
I started writing
The world became my muse,
i was so obsessed.
i covered my desk in scrawled notes
things I wrote.
i didn’t have many friends back then
but I don’t remember minding
i had my poetry
the words I wrote down daily.
but I never thought of myself as a poet
No, I was just myself
i wrote poems nearly daily.
And for the past 2 years since we met
Nearly all those poems have been about you
you told me once
long ago
you loved me more than music
And I told you in return
i loved you more than the stars in the sky
It was crazy. That you were all that was on my mind
I missed you I adored you
and I wrote you down every word
I became a fool for you March 4th 2022
And I loved you as I was undone
And I hate myself
because I would have given up all my poems
to you
I must have written a thousand by now
id have scraped the words clean from my soul
i burnt my books to burn away your cold.
i told you once
Long ago
that I loved you more than the stars in the sky
but it was a lie
because I loved you more than my poetry
I loved you more than
i loved me
I loved you enough to want to hand you the world if I could
And the craziest part,
the craziest part is that I still would
These words have been my only comfort at night
They’re where I go late at night
they make me something.
they make me, me
But if I could trade them all,
for your love again
I’d be too weak to say no
I’d be to slow to refuse
I’d be to helpless to think again.
but of course it would never work out like that
I’d want you
but we’d still be our worst
because we didn’t fit
we never fit
we didn’t work out
we never could
And you just noticed first
I loved you more than the stars in the sky
i loved you more than poetry
but that’s how people like us end
because I loved you more
more than my poetry