This piece is about mourning a version of my partner that once was and submitting to that reality.
Sad day when a murder goes unnoticed
silence of the lambs - hesitance in the stands
cry me a river - quiver - shiver
picked up my heart and misdelivered
I was certain you were the one
hard to make sense of what\'s done
and now I find myself in square none
exhuming fail-safes - confusing escapes
route\'s uncoordinated
I think I\'m lost without you - and yet abandoned by you
so I write myself: \"self: right yourself\"
despite yourself - come back around - from beside yourself
upright yourself
and begin.....to let her go.....again
and that\'s the thing about it
it\'s that duplicate pain
that exponentialed strain
excuses, explains...oh what a drain
Samsoning Delilah
scalped him to the brain
now I\'m left to pick up the pieces of my worth
social engineering skills - feelings unearthed
you should\'ve caressed me
you chose to care-less me
in your presence, yet you left me
and now I\'m forced to put hands on the love I shelter for you
no longer able to sustain your out-of-touchness
caught in your web
they say to yell \'fire\' is a lot better than \'help\'
\'cause while people respond to both calls as a threat
more than water is heeded to extinguish the \'help\'
what a cruel act you\'ve bound \'round my neck
kill what I\'ve nurtured? my heart? my soul\'s depths?
shut down in the interest of self preservation
how do you unlove? and find your problem solved?
dug a grave and spent the night reminiscing
pearly days, Atlanta braves - we were so good together baby
but now I have a dark heavy feeling in my chest that we won\'t find our way back this time
not casting blame - it barely bears no weight/wait
it\'s like being at a funeral engaged in a silly debate
why the deceased - ceased unto be - likely be caused - needlessly
won\'t change the loss, mourning, nor feel
and perhaps the saddest fact about that funeral?
barely crowded.....I\'m the sole attendee