Most of my life I’ve been living in sorrow
A lot of time I feel like my soul is just a blessing I borrow,
A sense of emptiness sweeps around the memories in my brain like a gust of wind
Yet an alternate being, like a devil in my body, can’t help but grin,
Fighting through my last breaths I picture my hatred for the world and all of my suffering
I reach for the sun, slipping through my grasp, as I fall deep past the surface of flames
These flames suffocate my soul but I don’t feel any pain, nor do I feel a slither of shame
I wonder if from the start my soul was never mine to claim,
As I approach my final thoughts I wonder why I always lived my life in vain
The demons that lurked in my thoughts were just something that I couldn’t tame
I’m falling so deep past the surface that I couldn’t even see the rain
Yet I still feel the sensation of my heart trapped in a wild flame,
My life was a game of hide and seek but I never found myself
Maybe things would’ve gone better if I asked for help
Denial of feeling left me numb and afraid
Now I think I’m feeling the weight of all my pain and my shame,
As I continued to fall into the depths of my sorrow
I thought about what it would be like to live another day and see tomorrow,
All of my emotions, that for years bubbled up inside of me, erupted as I watch the fire retreat from my body
All I could think was that I wanted to say sorry
To the people I hurt and the people I loved
I didn’t deserve the tears that washed over me like an old drug,
A sensation I hadn’t felt for centuries was hitting me with all of its might
I felt relaxed and that there was no longer a reason for me to fight,
As I’m engulfed into the darkness of the ocean I find myself no longer reaching for the light
I was at peace with my sins
I felt like I could finally ascend and take flight,
Before I closed my eyes I grinned back at the demon who left me with sorrow
I prey the soul I was gifted renewed and lives with the intent on seeing tomorrow.