I Started out small,
As all Humans do;
With dreams like mountains,
In hopes they’d come true.
To soar like a bird,
To glide like a fish;
Everything I wanted,
Started with just one wish.
My friends and family,
Cheering me on;
Creating new memories,
And making new bonds.
Laughing together,
And talking heart-to-heart;
For fear one wrong move,
Would tear me apart.
Wanting to grow up,
Or be just like dad;
Forgetting to slow down,
Remembering the sad.
Thinking too old,
Not wanting to stay young;
Giving in to peer pressure,
With hurtful words that stung.
Friends that backstab me,
That tear me every which way;
I put my head down,
In fear of what my parents would say.
Believing that the world,
Is just there to destroy me;
Making bad choices,
If only they could see.
Wishing that life was over,
Pretending no one could tell;
Distancing myself from others,
All I could do was yell.
Hiding my feelings,
From everyone who could help;
No one can hurt me,
If they don’t hear my yelp.
Faking a smile,
That was only just a mask;
No one cared to stop,
All they had to do was ask.
Knowing I could do better,
After staying up till three;
Not wanting any help,
Just people to let me be.
Having dreams of my past,
Of my “perfect” childhood;
Remembering how valuable,
If only I was still good.
My mother had once said,
“Don’t take life for granted”;
And “try to stay young”,
But those words have now become slanted.
Twisted words,
With a broken heart;
If only I knew,
How to go back to the start.
Broken friendships,
I knew wouldn’t last;
Crippling pain,
As I remember the past.
Blasting depressing music,
Straight into my ears;
Saying to myself and the world,
I would only be here for one more year.
I say that life is useless,
That I have no hope;
My friends try to listen,
Try to help me cope.
I distance myself,
From all my friends and family;
It’s up to me now,
I just want to be free.
I freeze,
With a brief moment of relief;
Stop to look at myself,
Because I’ve turned over a new leaf.
With a slight,
Moment of realization;
I am filled with hope,
And a bit of elation.
Break down in tears,
At the thought;
Of friends and family,
Having an empty spot.
The beautiful life,
I almost threw away;
I sit there speechless,
With no idea of what to say.
One wrong move,
Is all it would take;
One bad decision,
Sounded like a piece of cake.
I think back,
To what I could have been;
To climb high mountains,
Or put paper to pen.
A wave of emotions,
Now swallows me whole;
A hurricane of sadness,
The life I almost stole.
I turn to friends and family,
For help and support;
They comfort and guide me,
My life they help sort.
As I look back
To my childhood;
I wonder where I want wrong,
And what I did good.
And now I rely
That life’s just a mess;
With heartache and pain,
And no limit on stress.
Life’s also short,
Flies by fast;
But the best thing I can do,
Is try to make it last.
If everybody thinks,
Life is a race;
I will now gladly be last,
With the biggest smile on my face.
I still have dreams,
As tall as mountains;
Some even silly,
Like splashing in fountains.
I still want to soar,
Just like a bird;
Go to a good school,
and learn a new word.
Maybe even glide through water,
Like the most beautiful fish,
Everything I want,
Still starts with just one wish.
There is only one thing I would change,
As I look back on the past;
If only I hadn\'t wanted
To grow up too fast.