I think I\'m still in shock
It\'s been years
And I am still in shock
I want to feel my anger and sadness all the way to my bones
I want to hurl insults at him until he realizes how much he hurt me
I want to cry rivers made of tears for the little girl who had to grow up too fast
And I can\'t
I\'m unable to move on from that experience
My hands still shake, my heart still pounds, and my breath still stops whenever I think of him
That scared, deeply ashamed girl is frozen in time
I think it\'s why he still holds so much power over me
Because rationally I know it\'s been years
But I am still in shock