Jaxxie

Placebo Dream

I lost my head still-drunk on saline, joining

my words like a son-of-a-bitch—He knows

I\'m a sore loser, pegging my words still-thrown

in a ditch—I burn-my bible pages out of spite

you know (whiskey not to blame)—O\' lord 

of bile, fire-and-horror (I didn\'t catch the name)—

beads-of-sweat reflecting blood, but still I don\'t

see red—I\'m a sore loser (losing) still licking

off the thread—gun-in-my-mouth and it\'s

not my metal (fingers, spit, grime)—anthologies

of poetry (I\'ll never read) next to the train—(anyone

know the time?)

I haven\'t lived-my (life) under

seashells, or become one-with-the-storm—I still

have never touched saline spray, or killed over

(two of) thorns—sand shooting up my-nose

like (medicine), I hardly feel a thing—trigger-happy

books of men, reminiscing about—(spring?) 

Asking of antique people, sewn with (neurons,

stars):

 

I must ask you don\'t read my-eyes, and before 

you call me a bitch, help me find my bed—

 

resting now, dead as fish, I think I\'ve lost my

 

 (head)