In the past couple of months, it has been very hard to keep going when everything was falling apart,
Because I was listening to my head, when I should have been listening to my heart.
I was letting everyone around me get inside my head and break me down,
But I have finally realized that I am the only one who can pick me back up off the ground.
For far too long, I have let people who do not care about me control my life,
But I know that they would stab me in the back if I were to give them a knife.
I have finally realized that people don\'t have the kind of heart that I do, and most of the time, it feels like it\'s not fair,
When you need someone so badly, but no one seems to care.
I am realizing that they know that they need me, but I will never need any of them to help me,
And that is something that I am finally starting to be able to see.
That some people will never help you because they are afraid of what they know that you can be.
It can be hard sometimes to keep going when you feel like everything is against you,
But if it is something that you want, that it is something that you have to do.
Even when things get hard, you have to dig deep and keep going,
Because that is the only way that you can end up growing.
And the whole time that you are sitting there doubting yourself, there are people who are scared of you because they know what you can become,
Without even knowing your struggles, and where you truly came from.
Without a doubt, there are people who are going to want to see you fail, and they will never be happy when you succeed,
But that is why you will always be one step ahead and you will always remain in the lead.
Because while they are sitting there waiting to see you crash and burn,
They don\'t understand that they still have so many lessons to learn.
That hating on someone just cause they are doing better than you will get you no where,
And that they are slowly going to realize that you don\'t care.
Then no matter how bad they want to see you quit, you will never give in,
Because you will never go back to the way that things once have been.
You are no longer looking around, concerned about who is with you and who is not,
Because you have certain qualities about you that can not be taught.
Like the desire to keep going, even though life can be rough,
Because after everything you have been through you know that you are too tough.
To give up now when you know that this is something that you really want,
And that you can not wait until you are finally able to flaunt,
Everything that you have worked so hard for for the past one hundred and nineteen days,
Because you never walked away, and you chose to stick it out and stay.
Which is something that none of them can take away from you,
Because they don\'t know you, and everything that you have been through.
Just wait, and watch, cause when I come back soon, you won\'t even know who I am anymore,
Because I left that old me in the past, and I decided to completely shut that door.