1 Break up
love comes as a garment
sewn together from the deep
depths of creation,
and when seasons
rend it apart,
after it served us
with days of joy and warmth
we break down like a bombed wall
and crumble as we fall,
if i could un-speak the words
i have spoken,
or go back
to change the street i have taken,
so that we never met,
i try to grasp back with faith
clumsy hands
that spring forward
to catch you as you leave,
though i watch you go
i stand rooted to the spot
on legs seeking to walk by your side
but then you took your flight
on wings i never knew you had,
i can not shout
i can not speak,
for words rush to my eyes
and raise a storm
with rain drops upon my face,
but then sunlight through my tears
creates a rainbow amidst my fears.
I miss what we had
All those good and bad
Moments,the make up
And the break up
I miss the laughter
And the fights we had
The kisses and slaps
I just miss them
The tears that were spilled
And the ones that were wiped
I miss the hugs and the scratch
U gave me during an argument
I miss you most
Ur love ,ur smile,ur voice
Everything about u and
Everything we had
I miss the happiness
And the sadness
The emotions I used show
When I looked into ur eyes
I miss what we had
But ur gone now and
Never coming back
And it kills me everyday
Soon we will reunite
Course I don’t see myself
Living longer without ur love
I really miss what we had
When the heart is full and the mouth cannot speak
I let my pen do the work on the sheet.
I write to express my feelings mostly pain
Because this journey has been my longest train
Yet I endure quitely for the train to halt
Knowing I did my part and am not at fault.
Life sometimes give me reasons to give up
I turn around always looking for backup
Sadly I see no hand reaching out
I break down trying to stand up
Though it’s hard but it’s not time to clock out.
I have encountered people who are cold blooded
Some heartless and iron hearted
Some hurt me agonizing painfully
Others made me wept regretful sorrowfully
Although am love and kind hearted
Optimistically I look into the skies
Hopefully waiting for a sign in the stars
The journey has been tough and gruesome
To look beyond the glory is the hardest part
How much would I lose if I go for rope?
I’m confused but keeping the hope
In between the pen and the heart
There are thousand words unsaid
buried deep in the soul and space
carefully I laid them in phrases
Emotions I will write for ages
Till my breath ceases
With tears in your eyes, you try to smile
Guess we’ve known for quite a while
You say perhaps we need more space
And then you’re gone without a trace
Maybe I’m lazy, never read the signs
I wrongly assumed everything was fine
So as promises fade – you walk away
Foolishly believing you would always stay
Now I’m feeling empty and broken
So many words remain unspoken
I call and text, but get no reply
Never imagined this could be goodbye
Your eyes are full of sadness
From many sleepless nights
Back and forward accusations
Turned into violent fights
A victim of a cruel society
Abused from an early age
Beaten by your Father
In his drunken rage
All your teenage years
You suffered in silence
Never saying a word
Putting up with the violence
Married at nineteen years old
Selling your body on the street
Two kids by the age of twenty one
Still daily getting beat
Trying to break free
From your life of abuse
You keep saying things will change
But we all know that’s an excuse
I don’t understand why you put up with it
All the heartache and the pain
He beats you within an inch of your life
But you still run back to him again
All your life you have put up with this
Your body bears the scars of time
Broken bones and bruises
Are your trophies of every single crime
It’s time you changed your life
Before it gets too late
Pull yourself together
You look a sorry state
Leave behind all this abuse
Leave behind this cruel life
No man deserves to live
If he abuses his kids and wife
So wake up and smell the coffee
This world holds a place for you
Free from all this degradation
Leave this abuser is all you have to do