Life moves forward; yet, I still remain in the past
Trying to pull myself together, but I keep collapsing to my knees
I continue living in misery
How I wake up every morning still to abide unsolved
Demons ingrained in my head won\'t fade away
Divulging to me I would never see the light of day
I strive to stay brave & strong for the ones that mean the most
But they see me as intrusive
I strive to live the life I want & deserve, but cannot succeed
Society has me tantalized in its clutch
I try to break free from the manacles of negative thoughts
It\'s a hard that can never be achieved
I do not have a mind of my own
I have become a serf,to societies throne
Ruminating too much about the \"what ifs\"
Without looking to see I\'m at the brink of the abyss
I don\'t know who I am anymore
I sense I\'m a complete stranger to myself
They say time heals all things
If time heals, then why do I keep stressing -
And cannot heal myself?
I continue trying to prove to society that I\'m not a mistake
Like a vehicle without brakes
My heart shudders with fear & agony
Fear of disaffirmation & susceptibility
In this world I somehow find my way, a passage I will bid welcome
With strength I\'ll cast ahead, my dreams I will never jettison
Although the skies grow darker & wind roar loud, I will sail through
For in my heart, I hold the truth, I am not a mistake