The version of you I have known
is wonderful
genuine and kind
respectful and starry-eyed
I don’t know if it was real
but I know my love for you has always been
I know that sometimes, the worst people
are those you least expect
It has been less than a week, since this came out
and I haven’t been able to sleep or eat
I don’t know what will happen to me
what will happen to us
It was scary
opening myself to love
a whole new kind of vulnerability
I don’t know if your love has been genuine, but mine was
and is
and perhaps will be, for some time
I am not angry at myself for letting love out
I am so full of it
it drips from my fingertips
and I hope you are real
that everything turns out fine
but if this is not meant to be forever
I hope I can find someone to love me
to be genuine and kind
respectful and starry-eyed
someone to match my vulnerability
to love me with consistency
to help me find the light.
12:18pm – 09/09/23.