i remember being seven
and dreaming of the stories
i wanted to write
now i am nineteen
and i have written my heart out
so many times
i remember being eleven
and wishing home felt safe
now i am nineteen
and it is my favourite place
i remember being freshly-turned fifteen
fawning over my favourite youtuber
liking my comment
now i am nineteen
and i count him as a friend
i remember being sixteen
and wishing i had a better relationship
with my brother
now i am nineteen
and he runs straight to me
when he needs help
he calls for me before anyone else
perhaps someday i will look back
on being nineteen
perhaps one day, i will say
i remember being nineteen
and wanting to be happy
now i am older
and happiness comes easily
or perhaps i will say
i remember being nineteen
and wanting to be happy
now i am older
and i still want to be happy
but i have made it here, to this day
that is enough for me to keep going
i know i will forever keep growing.
12:16am - 25/11/23.