Cali Kittana

I Hate Myself

There\'s too many things I hate about myself

Listing them all would be quite tiring

From things I\'ve noticed to things others did

How they\'d tell me in such blunt ways

 

I hate my eyes first of all

The dark brown colour so dull and lifeless

How they never seem fully open

My dark circles taking over

 

I hate my hair as well

Brown is not a good colour on me

The curls never seem to be just right

No matter how long or short it doesn\'t work

 

Another thing I hate is my voice

It\'s too high pitched for some

Yet I can make it go too deep all the same

The squeaks that come out in excitement

 

My name has always been filled with hate

This is why I no longer use it anywhere

Unless it\'s work or family nobody knows it

How could you give me such a bad name

 

My face has also made this cruel list

The way my chin points out too far

How my freckles cover my cheeks and nose

When I can\'t keep my acne under control

 

I also hate my laugh

Whether it\'s a soft giggle or not

That horrible cackle that escapes

How annoying I must be to others

 

My legs make me crazy too

Starting with the huge thighs

Leading down to the twisted bones

My overly tight calf muscles

 

This personality I possess is just as bad

Acting different for everyone around

The way I can\'t seem to find just one

Yet I always hope everyone likes me

 

Don\'t look to my body for any hope

I hate this whole thing from head to toe

The fat on my stomach makes me sick

Cellulite that could make anyone cringe

 

There\'s just too many more things I hate

And I know that others hate them too

Yet I keep begging for affection

Hoping someone will adore what I hate