Light blooms deep in my chest
The rain trickles down my arms
As the colored light hits my eyes
I smile, teeth peaking out of their cave
The breeze lifts my hair into it’s tendrils
The locks blow around my eyes and nose
I look out into the world, love blossoming
I take a step forward and then another
But the third step is off, doesn’t feel right
Fear wraps it’s icy talons around my heart
I plunge into those depths yet again
The ones that have drowned me before
Yet I welcome them as the water rushes
My eyelids flutter as they slowly close
My body was as tense as a rubber band before
But the tension leaks out and into the dark abyss
The light seeps out of my pores until it’s gone
Leaving me empty, just as I was not long ago
And just as soon as it dragged me under
It makes me float upwards to the surface again
Again.
And again.