My brain is eating me alive
After having dinner with desert
A sin I need to attone for
Lemon curd cake in exchange for my pain
It\'s not because I\'m vain
A misconception about this disease
That tells me food is my enemy
And hunger my sole salvation
Having to say no to everything food entails
It\'s the only thing I still control with my life off the rails
I\'m alone in my suffering
And that\'s how it should stay
Starvation as my only company
My mental emptiness aligned with the physical
I\'m so self critical
It\'s me against myself and the only thing I can do is lose
There is no escaping the thing I hate most
Because food is needed to live
And my body is needed to survive
But that\'s hard to remember when my brain is eating me alive