Can you already hear the shovels
Knocking on the lid above your face?
Infection spreads from corpse to living bodies
‘It hasn’t even started’, you may think
And then you take a step
The line you crossed
Appeared to be
The line of fire
The body’s shaking
The worst flu of your life
Is the futility of it
You envy men that don’t know how
Painfully
Muscles can shrink
And how nauseously cinder stinks
You will remember every second
But that you won’t admit
What scalds your brains from inside out
One day will get through skull
And slam the helmet
Do you recall inhabiting this skin before
That all have happened?
Do you recall the vows you gave?
To make a change
Once you get back
You never really got back, did you?
Those scars, those bruises, those concussions
Did you even get there?
The wound of yours has been contaminated
And you
Yourself
You got pernicious
But God
Maybe you always were
Now, can’t you see
There is something disarming even
When promises like those you gave
Consistently get broken
Memories get inflamed again
Almost civil, it is
Almost human, you are.