this time its real
i cannot discern the appeal
nothing distracts my head
not even getting in bed
the words fill up my mind
there isn’t enough time
its all i ponder about
should i stay around?
i do not care for a better life
even if it shows pride
i have no hope for the betterment of a future
i lie to my peers about how i feel
i dont wish to see an appeal
life is useless in of itself
im losing my SELF