He says he loves me
He says he cares
So why is it so hard
For him to reassure my fears
Unanswered texts
Constant indecision
A love gone awry
This was never my vision
Please come downstairs
Please hug and kiss me
Please affirm your love
Please let me know you’d miss me
Old abuse and trauma
Rears its ugly head
I can’t help but feel
Like I’m better off dead
All I wanted
Was for someone to love me
Show me you care
Don’t put anyone above me
Years of being pushed
Pushed to the side
I didn’t mean to bring
You along for the ride
I can’t stand the silence
I can’t stand waiting
I’m slowly losing patience
Slowly incubating
Each day passes
And I lose a piece of myself
It’ll never change
The hands I was dealt
So I sink into darkness
Blackness, madness
Hurt beyond repair
And still giving passes
I just want to run
Far, far away
But I have to save it
For another day