I remember my happier days
For I felt like I didn\'t have to declare war
And being alone now
Is just a long reflection,
I can see my golden years ahead of me
And my body is soft and sincere
For back then, my body was a raging machine
And the alcohol made me feel invincible
And I didn\'t care about my age;
Sometimes you have to hold on to the prettiest things
To forget the bad,
For the bad made me lonelier than I am now
And it is so beautiful
The clouds of an early spring
As the sun beholds
A completely different person--
Today is the day I embrace my addiction
For I am my addiction; aren\'t we all?
There is a much sunnier face than ever before
For I forgive my addiction
And it forgives me
In order to be sober, I have to suffer
And I\'d rather suffer gracefully
Than to die every day
There is a rose in every garden
That is desperate to rebel,
But what is rebellion without a soul
If the soul cares for no one?
Oh my happier days
Are just useless now,
For what do I have to remember?
Yet my addiction scares me
Because it\'s grown old,
I am excited for the stars above;
For every desperate star shines bright
Yet does it rebel?