Santajah Douglass

In The Selfish World Let Me Be

Why are you following me and haunting me like a ghost?

It\'s like you never leave, only you did, but choices, they don\'t make sense.

Why are you trying to trap me here with you when we both left for the best too?

I don\'t like the torture that you have, chasing me down, trying to rub it in that you are the happiest clown around.

 

Why can\'t you stay away? Why keep casting the line?

You already had a fish bite, is that one not enough to satisfy you?

God, you\'re so selfish, and I take it, just leave me alone, god damn it.

Stop looking and lurking and pretending you\'re so innocent.

 

In a selfish world, the selfish succeed, and man, you\'re the cream of the crop,

So I guess that\'s why you\'re mean to me.

I can do better and I can be better, but you, I just want you to leave me in peace.

Let me fall if that makes you feel better. Free me from your torment instead of being an unworthy coward.

 

Stop trying to keep this thin line between us, it\'s over and it\'s been over for three years.

You still have not grown up, and you still play the same games, it\'s no wonder you watch me be.

But let me go, I was never yours to keep.

It happened, and I always acknowledged that it did, but enough is enough, and this time I will conclude it.

 

It\'s finished, it\'s done, now leave me be.

I didn\'t make the stupid decisions, and I\'m strong, so stay away from me while you live selfishly.

 

Why do you insist on following me like a ghost?

Your presence is suffocating, like an unwelcome host.

Why can\'t you see that your actions are cruel?

You\'re trapping me in a nightmare, playing the fool.

 

I don\'t want your games, your twisted delight,

I deserve to move on and find my own light.

I\'m tired of living in your shadow of lies,

The truth is out there, and it\'s time to rise.

 

You claim to be happy, the happiest clown,

But I see through the mask, your smile upside down.

Your selfishness consumes every room,

Leaving me to wonder if I\'m facing my doom.

 

Why can\'t you stay away, let me be free?

You already caught a fish, isn\'t that enough for thee?

It\'s time to release your grip on my soul,

Find your own happiness, let go of control.

 

In a world where selfishness prevails,

I strive for freedom, breaking through the veils.

I know I can do better, be stronger, be brave,

But you, with your tricks, only seek to enslave.

 

I\'m pleading with you, release your hold,

Lift the burden you\'ve placed on my weary soul.

Let me fall if that brings you respite,

But know that I\'ll rise, embracing the light.

 

There\'s no thin line left between us to tread,

It\'s over, it\'s done, our story has been said.

I wasn\'t yours to keep, that was clear from the start,

So leave me be, let healing mend my heart.

 

I won\'t deny what happened, it\'s true,

But dwelling in the past won\'t help me or you.

Enough is enough, it\'s time to move on,

To find peace and happiness, to let go and be strong.

 

This chapter is finished, the book now closed,

I won\'t let your torment keep me enclosed.

I didn\'t make the foolish choices you did,

But I won\'t let your selfishness keep me hid.

 

So stay away from me, let me breathe,

Live your life, stop fueling the need.

I am strong, I am resilient, I am free,

And I won\'t let your haunting define me.