Santajah Douglass

The Dance of Forgiveness and Unapologetically Sorry for You

I feel sorry for you

and I\'ve never thought

I would be the type of person

to give anyone pity

but I see the way you look at me

it\'s undressed really

and I don\'t understand

how you can act like you\'re fine

 

and then be surprised

when you cross the line

and other people\'s feelings get hurt

and you never know why

I feel like sometimes you\'re just so dense

but I move forward

like a beautiful dancing figure without end

 

you watch me

and I just let you

oh I\'ll twirl

and I\'ll captivate

while you just manipulate

trying to get me to look at you

but I refuse

 

I twirl

I take the hand

in the next partner

and I\'ll keep going and rolling

I will curtsey

and he will bow

and you just keep watching and watching

 

not realizing that time is now running out for you

but not me

I\'ve always been captivating and smart

and your eyes have always lingered on me

 

at one point

you can say you had my heart

and I know I had yours

but it\'s not the same anymore

at least on my end

 

I\'ll let you stare

because that is probably

all you have left

 

I feel sorry for you

because you\'re trapped

in a cycle of manipulation

and self-deception

you think you\'re in control

but in reality

you\'re just a prisoner of your own ego

 

I see the emptiness in your eyes

the desperation for validation

that you can never quite achieve

no matter how many hearts you break

 

I feel sorry for you

because you will never know

the joy of genuine connection

the warmth of true love

the peace that comes from authenticity

 

you will always be

a charade

a facade

a hollow shell

 

I feel sorry for you

because you will never know

the beauty of vulnerability

the strength of honesty

the power of humility

 

I feel sorry for you

because you will never know

the depth of your own soul

the richness of your own spirit

the greatness that lies dormant within you

 

I feel sorry for you

because you will never know

the freedom of being truly yourself

the liberation of letting go

of the need to control

 

I feel sorry for you

but I also feel compassion

because I know

that underneath all the lies

and deceit

and manipulation

 

there is a wounded heart

a lost soul

a fragile being

who longs for love

who yearns for connection

 

I feel sorry for you

but I also hold out hope

that one day

you will see

the truth of who you are

and you will set yourself free

 

I feel sorry for you

but I also believe

that you have the capacity

to heal

to grow

to transform

 

I feel sorry for you

but I also offer forgiveness

for all the pain

and suffering

you have caused

 

I feel sorry for you

but I also pray

that you will find

peace

and love

and redemption

 

I feel sorry for you

but I also know

that you are capable

of so much more

than you can ever imagine

 

I feel sorry for you

but I also believe

that you are not beyond

redemption 

and I hope that one day

you will find

the courage

to face

the truth

and to become

the person

you were always

meant to be.