I\'m lying, oh I\'m so lying,
Behind the words I say,
Is a complete lie,
And I am dying to say more,
Than meets the eye.
I will tell you I want to kick you to the moon,
And in reality,
I want you to hold me so close,
It\'s not even funny.
I like your playful jokes,
Even if I act annoyed,
But I never want you to stop,
Because somehow it\'s uncomfortable,
When you\'re not smiling or laughing or telling jokes.
I don\'t know when you got so affectionate,
And when I started to like it,
But it\'s weird for me,
Because I don\'t want to let you go,
But I feel torn between what I am and what we do.
I wish you would admit your feelings too,
And I don\'t want to feel like I\'m in a one-sided romance,
Because I\'m not the girl who ends up with a prince,
And I know this,
But I also be lying,
If I said I wasn\'t attracted,
To this man who makes me feel like I have butterflies in my stomach.
He holds me and I embrace when I\'m in a panic,
And I\'m driving myself insane,
Because I see him when I fall asleep,
What is he thinking?
Is he feeling the same as me,
Or am I just living in a fantasy,
Is this just a momentary infatuation,
Or is it something deeper,
Something real and true.
I try to push these thoughts away,
But they keep coming back,
Like waves crashing against the shore,
Relentless and unstoppable.
I want to confess my feelings,
But fear holds me back,
Afraid of rejection,
Afraid of ruining what we have.
So I continue to lie,
To myself and to him,
Hiding behind a facade,
Pretending I don\'t feel the way I do.
But deep down,
In the depths of my soul,
I know the truth,
I know that I\'m lying.
Lying to myself,
Lying to him,
Lying to the world,
Hiding the feelings that threaten to consume me.
I long to be honest,
To open up my heart,
To let him see the real me,
But fear holds me back,
Keeping me trapped in this facade.
I am dying to break free,
To let the truth be known,
To confess my feelings,
And see where they may lead.
But for now,
I continue to lie,
Saying one thing,
While feeling another,
Hoping that someday,
I will find the courage,
To speak the truth,
And let my heart be free.