Left bittersweet nightshade at your door
Darling, I don\'t love you anymore
Tricked our carrier pigeons
I try not to feel bad
Sent them to the graveyard
Better off with the dead
Sometimes you don\'t hold grudges
Sometimes they\'re tethered to you
Love died but I carry her carcass
Those things you just can\'t undo
I swore you\'d never be my consignee again
Dust collecting on letters I wrote on the train
Time, my dear friend, erased my amnesia
I recall now how carefree I felt before
Before I tripped over those roots of yours
And I
Wore a neverending frown
Clung to the blade in my chest
Left bloodtrails all over town
Who down in hell could have guessed
The pain little me could endure
Nearly choked on the taste of metal
Scrubbed underneath my nails to make sure
This love was too weak to still bedevil
Left salty stains
on my best friend\'s shoulder
Flooded the boat
nearly pulled us under
Now I wonder
Did you ever deserve those rosy words
When I called you my deep sea treasure
My know-it-all
Just a kid, how would I know better
I loved to fall
In love with you, every day
Your name I carved into my heart
Over and over
And you stared, watched it break apart
My cells can only renew so fast
Only understood on the way to the cliffs
Wrapped in alice blue silk
That I had bled dry
From hating my body
And wishing to lie
On the steps to your door
Begging for love
Now I see it clear
There is much more
I\'m worthy of
And sometimes I fucking hate you
For things you didn\'t mean to do
Then I remember
We\'re all trying our best
Me, the whole world, and you